Relaku Pujuk – Spider

January 24, 2008

ku dikejar bayang-bayang resah,
(i am chased by the shadows of despair)
bila hatimu masih tak berubah,
(when your heart still won’t change)
enggan di punah, dan di penjara,
(won’t be tamed, and restricted)
belaian cintaku ini….
(by my persuasion of love)

aku bukan lelaki yang tewas,
(i am not a man who is defeated)
bisa meradang walau ku di tolak,
bila di uji, kanan dan kiri
(when tested, from the right and left)
kau kan tetap ku miliki,
(you will be mine)

tiada lafaz yang lebih agung,
(there’s no recitation more great)
kalimah cintamu,
(your words of love)
yang ku tunggu-tunggu,
(that i am waiting for)
biar jasadku yang menanggung,
(let my body take)
permainan darimu,
(the games that you play)
rela ku pujuk
(i am willing to persuade)

janganlah kau salahkan aku,
(don’t you wrong me)
terus memburu menawan cintamu,
(always trying to charm your love)
daku percaya…sedikit masa
(i believe…a little time)
kau kecundang…akhirnya
(you will topple…in the end)

usahlah kau bersedih
(there’s no need for you to be sad)
di hadapanmu aku hadir,
(before you i am present)
memadam resah dan curiga
(to vanquish despair and suspicion)
dari hatimu…
(from your heart)

apa yang kau ingini,
(what you want)
bisa kau tolak dan berlari,
(you may push aside and run)
setelah aku…
(after i)
azimat ku…
(my resolution)



January 20, 2008

Its been a tiring year so far, lol. been sleeping for only like 4 – 5 hrs a day and my body clock is going haywire. project is progressing, i suppose. test and quizzes are half way through. soon going to refurbish my room, yay.

only started work this month and like 1day so far, today took the day off, to study and do project. the pay is slightly smaller, but the hours are 3times longer, and i only work on Sundays with the occasional Saturday to be expected. so for the pass 1n1/2 months cant really spend on anything.

but i did manage to spend my last dollars on my graphic tablet, lol. now forcing my father to get a new com!!! lol.

a few days back and old friend called me, lol. she’s one yr younger than, lol. she use to call me ard 11 then we would talk till either one of us falls asleep, i would go out first most if nt all, lol, the time. its been awhile since i heard from her, lol. this time talked till 2am. lol. then i fell asleep, lolololol. hope to hear from her again soon.

thats all for now…


YP-U3, Yay

November 29, 2007

Yeah today got myself my new mp3Player, lol. the YP-U3

I got the green one!!!


It looks so cute!!! but i kinda wan the zen stone plus as well. but the u3 doesnt require me to use cables and its brighter and it uses a touch pad and its longer so its more comfortable for my hand, but i one gb one since i had nt enough$$$, so there goes the last of my pay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the batt life is also 5hrs longer, but it can only be charge by use. songs can be drag and droped, yay. it doubles as my thumbdrive!!!! but can really store to heavy a stuff!!! lol.  the tip also glows blue!! which is like so pretty, lol. the earpiece and reel match with the green. and it also has radio and a build in recorder which can be useful if u have a memory like mine. lol…

thats all for now…



October 31, 2007

I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory

When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me

I am the one star that keeps burning
So brightly
It is the last light
To fade into the rising sun

I’m with you whenever you tell
My story
For I am all I’ve done

I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember me

I am that warm voice in the cold wind
That whispers
And if you listen
You’ll hear me call across the sky

As long as I still can reach out
And touch you
Then I will never die

I’ll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me

I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory

When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me
Remember me

Remember me


October 9, 2007

You may be a hero here, step out and you might be a villain.

yesterday’s post

October 8, 2007

so i sit here now in the comfort my class with the rain pouring outside. in a way its good. it cools us down abit. but how are this kids going to go home? lol. how am i going to get home. i could always ask for a ride from one of the parents, lol. i mean i did it once before, lol. but that will be very professional would it.

I cant walk to the mrt or even the main road. lol the thunder just got louder and the lighting brighter. that’s the problem when you are around rich people houses, there are no shelters unlike hdb estates. at least its cool enough for me to think clearly. actually i feel like taking a nap, but that is just not ethical. my eyes are like half shut now, lol.

there are evil people out there. there are those that are extremely evil, super evil, very evil, born evil, normal evil and then there is WSK(purest form of evil), lol. i’m beginning to lose myself now, lol. so sleepy, ironically there’s a carpet in my class and cushions, 4 soft cushions. but i cant sleep just in case a parent pops by, lol. that will be funny.

i have also decided that this year will be my last year working here, yay and boo. yay because i will then have my sundays free to work somewhere else. boo because i will miss those little monsters, lol, kids. why you might ask, despite the not so tough job and the attractive pay. EVIL PEOPLE. let me explain, and its going to get messy. TiM was originally autonomous for about 2 years. it was under the protection of mahad(my father), which was under the central zone committee(my uncle), my uncle and father too being in the leading committee. then because of the EVIL PEOPLE. my uncle’s influence wains, then being the type of person he is he left the leading committee. but i still have my father. then my father being the type of person who he is leaves the leading committee and by doing so he also pulled mahad out, so now TiM no longer has my family’s protection. and since TiM is no longer under mahad, TiM is no longer protected by the central zone committee. so for about 3 months TiM was still autonomous and had no protection, this is bad. by the influence of the EVIL PEOPLE the president of the organization asked the kindergarten(full time) to take over TiM. but this was averted because my father have some influence with the kindergarten and also because the principal knows that the EVIL PEOPLE are EVIL so she dun like them. so for the rest of the year, 3rd year TiM was Autonomous under the cloak of Kindergarten TiM’s activities was hidden from the EVIL PEOPLE. but come the 4th year(this year), the EVIL PEOPLE pressured the kindergarten to stop protecting TiM, further the principals workload was doubled when she was made principal of MY2kids(a childcare center near simei). with so much to do the principal was not able to protect TiM. as a result TiM is under Kindergarten which mean that TiM is under the eye of the EVIL PEOPLE. soon ard july, a coup was launched against the principal, soon the principal was ousted and a pro EVIL PEOPLE principal was installed. this time my father have no influence at all. what did i do??? i joined the Burmese monks, lol. i refuse to hand over any funds. all salary was paid by cash again like the first 2 years by me and receipts were reverted to the original receipt instead of the kindergarten’s recipt. but before the old principal left i had alrd placed my pices to set in motion. i had talked to the aishah’s committee to discuss a transfer of TiM from kindergarten to aishah. this was agreed by the old principal and my father and aishah. if TiM was under aishah which is headed by an old friend of my late grandfather the EVIL PEOPLE have no power over her. but behind me the EVIL PEOPLE influence the leading committee to transfer TiM from kindergarten to KABA(weekend religious school) which is headed by one of the EVIL PEOPLE. this was agreed by the new kindergarten principal. this transfer was to be made in september. what did i do?? i made like the Burmese monks. I will never work for those EVIL PEOPLE. i said i will manage TiM with or without their mandate till the end of this year where i will transfer TiM formally and resign along with the the teachers of TiM. If they want to play evil i can be evil.

ok, i feel very annoyed right now. on the bright side soon i will have one less problem to worry about, lol.

thats all for now…


my new specs…

September 28, 2007


This is the the design for my new specs… its from moZaic. but this is nt my color, mine is black and red. front black back red. well i did not arrive yesterday tough, only today afternoon. The spectacle case is like so nice, lol.

 mozaic-2_38.jpg The design kind of look like this for the casing. so there are tiny beige squares all over my specs cassing. Sorry jason i’m not into large lenses, my father might have worn them during is younger days with is afro tough, lol…

thats all for now…